This story is a testimony of my lifelong journey towards hope, salvation, and growing faith. Despite the backdrop of poverty, abuse, homelessness, homosexuality, sexual assault, drugs, alcohol, rejection, failure, suicide, and a bad marriage followed by divorce, God has loved me enough to bless me beyond all imagination in spite of my mess. Through all of that, I have been nowhere close to perfect, but I have been faithful. My prayer is that you will read my testimony of everything I have been through over the last 45 years and allow it to inspire you to not only embrace your fears, but also use those fears as a catalyst to transform what may be only a mustard seed amount of faith into mountain size faith. When you do that, God steps in and begins fulfilling His promises to you. NOTHING is impossible The mustard seed is the smallest seed known to man, so that is not a lot, but you have to start somewhere and that is all it takes "If you have faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there, ' and it would move. Nothing would be impossible for you." Matthew 17:20 (NLT)